So I've had an interesting passed year. This time last year my fiancee and I had just broken up and we were trying to still be friends, unsuccessfully. I was still at the University of Windsor for my History degree. I was not exactly in my best frame of mind.
Since then:
- I've gotten over my ex, and we truly have become friends again.
- I started my RMT course @ CCHST in September of this year and I'm done my first Term! In January I'm starting Term 2 and clinic!!! *bites nails* ... Oh wait, I don't have any left (don't wanna cut people while massaging them)!
- I went through a long distance crush/fling with a truly amazing guy in Toronto, who I do love, but not in a way that anything could work out with and I've come to terms with it. I will love him forever, but it's slowly developing into a different kind of love, not a pressing-need to talk all the time kind of infatuation, but a mature, friends with strong feelings of the sexual variety for each other kind of relationship, and I think in the end will be one of those grown up relationships where we are friends who have slept together in the passed, and had a lot of fun, but realize it wont work out.
- I spent a lot of time this passed summer hanging out with some friends from the history department and one of my friends who was dating on of those guy friends. [To avoid confusion we'll call them Tom, Bob and Sue. Tom and Bob were in History with me, Sue I met through a high school friend. Bob and Sue were dating]. We got to know each other very well and then Bob broke up with Sue and it got awkward for a while so I didn't see any of them. Then I started hanging out with the Tom and Bob at the Pub once a week or so, and then Bob and I started flirting and he kissed me, but we decided not to do anything because of the not wanting to hurt Sue's feelings. He started to hang out with me and my friends on Thursday nights for jeopardy, big bang theory and shit my dad says. Then we started hanging out once or twice a week. Then we slept together. It's been a developing thing for 4 or 5 months now, but I'm starting to get to the point where I think I could seriously date Bob and really be happy, perhaps even have a long term relationship with him (my family even likes him!!!).
- Since we haven't talked about exclusivity, I started talking to a guy online from Toronto, Winter by screen name, who was pretty much amazing. He's a really big nerd, Norseman, kinky, really funny, and seems to be very taken with me.
- I was very torn for a while between my mature T.O. friend w/benefits; Winter, and Bob. Then I realized that my T.O. friend would always be just that - a guy I talked to all the time online, but unless I moved to Toronto it would never become anything but a hookup whenever I was in Toronto. If I moved to Toronto... it's not even a for sure thing in that case. With Winter, he's awesome, but everything I like about him, I have in Bob (and he's in Windsor, not Toronto), and I have a shot at being really happy with him. The only problem - Sue. When I came to her about him kissing me, asking what I should do, she told me to go for it, but then the next day flipped out and told me she couldn't be friends with me if I were to date Bob. So I've decided that if she was a real friend, and not being immature and selfish, she would realize that he and I are awesome together and be happy for me, even if it hurt her for a while. So... I'm not going to rush things, or jump into a relationship, and push it into directions or speeds it's not ready for. I'm going to go for Bob. I've come to the point in my life where I need to make myself happy, and the rest will work out as it may, I needn't worry about it. So that's what I'm going to so.
I'm not sure where it will all lead, or how it will go. But insofar as I can see, there is no downside to Bob. He's funny, amazing, nerdy, cooks, loves history, books, movies, is pagan(recently discovered Norse and figuring it out on his own), really smart, social and hermit-like at the same time (like me!), gets along with my friends and family and I cannot find a single thing I don't like about him (except maybe the kissing style when we first started kissing... I don't know if I'm just getting used it, he's adapting to my kissing style, or both, but it's better now)... oh, yeah, and he wears a kilt every-so-often and likes kinky things too. So I'm just going to coast my way from here, but I've decided I want to date him, whenever it happens. When I brought it up, he didn't freak out, and he came to my family xmas party tonight and didn't freak out about anything, even the drunken uncles. Plus we were kind of cuddling on the couch most of the night and I'm pretty sure a couple of people even called him my bf and he didn't correct them, or ask me why I didn't. I really like him. It's kinda perfect.
So that's been my 2010... and I am excited to start into 2011 and see where it all goes!
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