Hey All,
So today is Lughnasadh, or as the medieval Christians called it - Lammas, the first Harvest festival of the year, where corn and wheat are harvested along with some berries, and made their bread as an offering to the gods. I've enjoyed the sunshine all day, and I think I'm going to have a campfire tonight, but I just haven't really felt up to much by way of paganism today. I have a weird kind of sick feeling going on, mostly because Nick has been getting worse since we got back from Spirits Fest this summer.
We went to Spirits together, had a fantastic time (no migraines, woo!) and everything was great, then we got back to Windsor and my allergies went a bit haywire for the first little while, but I got them back under control, however Nick's been getting headaches and migraines pretty much -every-day since we got back. Before we left they were horrible, no medicine except Excedrin worked to control or get rid of them, they were about 2-3x per week and they often had nausea, vomiting from the nausea, and when the actual migraines hit, he goes partially, to completely blind (at least his central vision, with blurry peripherals). He has been getting these since his dad passed away when he was 9, and at the time they had him tested and there was no discernible cause or cure. He hates doctors and refuses to go to the ER, even though I'm REALLY worried about it. I've tried giving him massages to help with the referral patterns of where the headaches are - sometimes it works, however today it backfired and things got worse instead of better. I'm really scared for him. Its like it just keeps getting worse and worse the longer he's in Windsor, and in his house (black mold in his bedroom ceiling!) and I know he's fed up with it, and wants out. I want to be able to help, but I don't really know -what- to do. Massage isn't working, medicine isn't working, he wont go to the doctor and I don't know enough about herbal remedies to be able to help. The only thing I can think of is either moving out of his house, or moving out of Windsor, and neither are very feasible at the current point in either of our lives. I love him so much, and hate seeing him in pain everyday, but I don't know what to do to help. I think this is where the sick feeling is coming from.
On the front of Lughnasadh, and the thought process of harvesting and being thankful for what I have in my life: I'm very happily in love and loving being with Nick, I'm thankful for having him in my life, and I'm looking forward to a happy future with him. I am thankful for the opportunity to go to school for something I love and find interesting and I'm looking forward to working in massage (hopefully by next year). I'm thankful for my friends and family and all the love and support they have shown me over the years and looking forward to many years of future friendship, love and support.
I'm going to go make my campfire and get some meditation in before my parents get back.
-Jade-